My mom and sister flew out to spend time with us and Baby. We couldn't have gotten through the first week without them, all the drama and tears and phone calls. Thank you, Mom and Keri, you are lifesavers. We didn't leave the house much, but did make a trip here, which is probably one of the strangest places I've been.
Dax loved Baby, and even more, Baby loooved Dax. Whenever she was fussy we made Dax come over to her, and she would smile, giggle, and grab his ears. He misses her. 
We started her on carrots the other day, and after every mouthful she would make this face. Oh, the cuteness.Our last day together: When we found out that birthmom revoked her consent, Isaac raced home from work to be with me. We cried and cried. It was Baby's 6 month birthday, and being big on birthdays in our house, we were going to have a little party. I cried for the party we'd never have, for the many parties we'd never share with her. Isaac decided that we were going to have a party- we were going to take her to the zoo. So off we went.
After the zoo, we spent the rest of the day taking pictures of our baby, playing with her, and loving every minute we got to spend together.
my favorite spot in the house. i cherish every minute i got to sit in her make-shift nursery, rocking her, feeding her, singing to her, praying over her.
my favorite spot in the house. i cherish every minute i got to sit in her make-shift nursery, rocking her, feeding her, singing to her, praying over her. 
Thank you ALL for your comments, prayers, emails, phone calls, dinners, cleaning of our house, hearts all over our yard, love, and support. We love you, and are SO grateful to have been blessed with the most amazing friends and families in the world. Seriously. Thank you.
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Oh, Sara and Isaac... my heart goes out to you guys! I love you and pray for you! I know (and that you know) that our Savior is with you and loves you and baby Kate. How I pray that she will be alright and that you guys will make it through! Love you... Thanks for the pics! What a cute little girl!!
Today was the first day I haven't cried. That ended with this post. I don't think my tears will ever dry up when it comes to this baby girl. Sara...know that we are here for you, just waiting to see you in a week. I can't wait to have you here with your family. We love you so much and want to help you through this as much as we can. We all love you and miss you so much. What a little beauty she is. She is so lucky that she had you in her life.
you guys are amazing parents! Life is wonderful but can sometime be so cruel. I'm terrible with words but I love you guys and am so sorry for your hurting hearts right now.
Still love you! Still praying for you!!!
thinking about you! I am very sorry for what has happened in your family. we will all pray for comfort for you.
Just lurked over from Tiff's blog. I will add you to our prayers. I can't imagine your grief and strength right now. My heart goes out to you!
I have found you through The R House and want you to know that my heart is breaking for you!! Oh what a sweet girl - the pictures are so priceless!! Please know that you are in my family's prayers.
Hey, Jennifer and I would like to send you two a Christmas card, but we don't have your address. Could you send me an e-mail with it? GreenPhoenix27@Yahoo.com
Thanks and have a Merry Christmas.
By the way, those are really cute pictures. You look so happy in them.
Sara, you're amazing. We must hang out when you're up for it. I'll bring food. Good food. Awesome food. Sushi. Let me know when.
Call me if you need anything.
Sara,
All I can say is that I am soooo Sorry! Keep hanging in there.
Jimi and I have been babysitting my two year old nephew for the past week (day and night). And tonight we all went to dinner together. We felt like a little family. Everyone thought he was ours. He is not ours. His parents are very much in the picture; they are in Hawaii on an r&r.
At dinner we were talking about our friends Sara and Isaac and the huge heartache we feel for them. For you.
I wish I had something profound to say to lighten your burden but I don't and it wouldn't help even if I did. Just know that we are rooting for you. You are awesome, this post is a testament to that! Your baby girl is beautiful and I truly believe that she knows you are her angels. Hang in there! We are still praying for you.
Love from The Jars! ;)
Sara I'm so sorry for what happened. She is beautiful and the pictures are adorable. Good luck.
Sara and Isaac...I haven't had the internet for a year and no longer work at the same place. I just obtained access again and logged on to your blog since you are frequently on my mind; wondering how you are doing. I was instantly heart broken for the two of you. I can't begin to even imagine the pain you are experiencing. What I can do is continue to pray for you, as well as the baby. She is so beautiful and the pictures are priceless. No words can express my sorrow for you or ease your pain, so just know that I'm here for you. Our Heavenly Father and Savior love you both so much and feel your pain. You will be parents again, when the time is right, and the blessings will be bountiful. You still are parents in your hearts and souls to the beautiful little girl that was blessed to be placed in your arms.
Again, I am so sorry.
I love you two!!!
Rhonda Robins
On a happier note. Sara, you crack me up!!! You have the most fun and playful personality. Just reading your previous blogs, have really put a smile on my face. I laughed and laughed about the "Kerr" lids on your sister's birthday blog. How funny you are!!
Isaac, you are the sweetest most considerate husband. You two are truly a match made in heaven. If only all marriages could be as strong, loving, and supportive as the two of yours!!
What amazing parents you are. I love the comment here that you are her angels. It is so true. Our hearts go out to you!
Love, us
I found your blog through Mrs. R's blog. My heart hurts for you guys. You guys truly are angels on earth for this baby girl. Your family is in my prayers.
these photos are beautiful, but he first word that came out of my mouth was "dangit!" if any couple deserves a baby it is you two! dangit! we love you!
Oh, Sara. I needed a good reason to cry today. Thanks for the outlet. Bless your hearts. You guys will be so blessed.
Sara I am in the 1st ward. My name is Adrienne. I am so sorry my heart arches for you. You and Issac will be in our prayers.
love the pictures...still praying for you guys all the time.
You guys are so strong, great, wonderful and just plain old amazing, I can't imagine the heartache you are going through right now, but I wish I could make it go away because my heart hurts for you! I can't see the screen through my tears, so I hope my typing skills paid off here! We LOVE you!!!
Hey I don't want you to call me back or anything. I just wanted to make sure you have been getting my voice messages I have been leaving you. Love you guys
Sara, I love you! I don't think I've ever cried so hard over a blog. You are an amazing woman! I am truly blessed to know you. Thank you for your example and faith! You lift my spirit, just knowing there are people out there like you! You are in my prayers (and I'll throw in a fasting session as well). You and your husband are beautiful people!
Hey Sara,
We've been thinking of you guys and praying for you like crazy. You may not know why the Lord let you experience this, but I do know that he hears and answers prayers. So yes, we will pray on for you and Isaac. She is adorable and will forever have a place in your hearts.
With love, Ann & Scott
I don't know you or even know how I stumbled onto your blog but I am in tears, tears for you. I am so sorry. I was adopted 33 years ago and then when I was 20, I gave a baby up for adoption...I am compelled by your story and I will pray for you. Again, I am so sorry...I wish...I wish I could change your situation right now...it's not fair!
I got through yesterday and most of today (until I read your post) without crying, but here I go again. You are the strongest people I have ever met. If this was me I would be in my bed hiding under my covers until I got bed sores or something. I love these pictures. So cute.
Sara, you and your husband have been in my thoughts so much, but tonight I was particularly thinking about you. I just want to say: Don't give up. What you've been through sounds harder than anything I could have even imagined, but so many are lifting you two up, and I hope you will feel the love and hope surrounding you. There were many times I questioned EVERYTHING leading up to the adoption of our son (and to be truthful, even once we were parents there were/are plenty of moments of thinking "what the heck did we get ourselves into"). But ultimately, everything - and I am assuming even the fire you've walked through - is WORTH IT. You hang in there, dear. You may be down, but you're not out. There are babies (more than one, I'm nearly positive) heading your way. You will be a fabulous mom to them. I personally cannot stand the musical group Rascal Flatts, but I think there is truth in that song: "God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you." I hope you are having a good day today, and that you can feel hope in your heart. With love -
Hi - you dont' know me, but I am Kati's friend from childhood. I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. My heart is breaking for your sweet family. Somehow - through this all, God will watch out for you. May he strengthen you through this terrible trial.
I am crying right now reading your story. I'm so sorry that this happened--but there will be a brighter day. I don't quite know how you feel, but can understand a little bit because we worked with a birthmother for 7 months and then she couldn't go through with the adoption and had the baby and without even telling us (She was in prison in CA). Anyway, another long story--but my heart aches for you. Just try to have faith and live one day at a time although it is hard. I can't imagine how hard it must be to have had a beautiful baby for 34 days and then have to give her back to her birthmother.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you!!!
Love, Ethan and Melissa Selph
Sending hugs from a stranger in Ohio who read about your experience from R house.
Hope your days ahead are brighter.
Sara and Isaac- I can't imagine the loss that you are feeling right now. My heart truly aches for you. Our family is praying for your happiness.
Ashley posted about your story and it breaks my heart. I can't help but cry when I read what you have been through. I am so sorry for the pain you feel. You gave that little girl the best 34 days of her life.
Wow, I don't even know you(saw this through Tiff's blog), and I cried the entire time I was reading. You guys are two very strong people. I know you will be blessed for you courage and faith. My heart goes out to you especially this time of year.
We are friends of Kati, and we just wanted to say we are so sorry! I can't even imagine the pain you guys are going through. But just know there is something great in store waiting for you. As much as it hurts things will work out for the best.
I came across your blog by clicking around. I practically fell apart reading your heart breaking story - my heart goes out to you. I had a miscarriage a few months ago and that was a very hard time for me, but reading your story - I could never even imagine what you had to go through. The Lord must really have something special planned for you and your family. I will keep your family in my prays - especially through this holiday season. Good Luck and Merry Christmas!
Yikes and Sara,
It's not fair. You guys rock, and you don't deserve this crap. Perhaps you'll never come to terms with this, and there is probably no reason at all this happened, but there is a baby girl out there who just had the best month of her life. Nobody can take the joy and sorrow of that month from the three of you. The insight and wisdom you gain from this nightmare will be your gift to others. Share it when the time is right. As someone who knows the bitter pain and sorrow of loss, I promise you that each day will suck less than the day before. Some day it won't hurt to go into her room, to see a little baby girl, to hear her name. Breathe. I love you guys.
Tammy Sellers Brown
I don't know you but that baby is your baby. I can't believe she isn't home for Christmas. I pray your home will be filled with love and peace this week. I know it seems impossible, but I pray you will feel the prayers of everyone who love you.
I don't even know what to say. I will pray for you. If you need anything please let me know, I can fly to be there in a heartbeat.
-Aleeza
I am crying for you I can hardly type. I followed the link from the r house blog and don't know you but wanted to let you know I think you are the strongest person to write and share this. After just adopting a year ago ourselves, I cry for you, I can't imagine my tears would ever stop if my baby was taken from me. Stay strong.
Hi, you don't know me, but I left a comment on your previous post. I read your story from the R house blog.
I am a foster-adopt mom and I KNOW your pain.
I just wanted to write and tell you that I am thinking of you almost every day and I have prayed for you.
I just wanted to say Merry Christmas! I hope your heart heals. If you would like someone to talk to who know what you are going through, please don't hesitate to email me: rsp80@yahoo.com.
Love,
Renee'
I found your blog through Mrs. R's post and my heart goes out to you. That little girl was blessed to be in your family, even if it was just for a short time. You will be in my prayers and I am sure in the new year you will be blessed with another little one to share all of your love with.
My heart hurts for you.
Love,
Laura Lazewski
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