I'm sitting at home, watching the Office, waiting to go pick up Isaac from work at 1am (!). I'm drinking water from a red wine goblet because it makes me feel like I'm drowning my sorrows in something. Isaac can always tell when I've had a bad day because out comes the goblet.
It's been a hard couple of weeks and I have come to dislike the beginning of September. We had two potential birthmoms that were both due in August- September means that we weren't chosen (again and again), that we still aren't parents, I'm one year closer to old, I have to start school because I really don't have any reason not to, and I am just all around sad/frustrated/hopeless.
What a downer. I think I'll drink from the goblet tomorrow too.
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I wish I had some great words to write. I wish I could promise you that everything will end up perfect. I cannot even imagine what you are feeling. The only thing I can say, is I am sorry. Doesn't sound like much. The only thing I can tell you is that we are planning to buy our tickets very soon and I cannot wait to drink water from a red wine goblet with you. Heck...let's get dangerous and throw some Pepsi in there. That fixes a lot of things. We love you. The week we are there, it will kind of feel like you have gotten your wish. Mat is just like a kid. You can take care of him and give me a break. Love you.
i wish i had some words of comfort or cheer. i am just sorry. days can really suck and be rough, and i think it is just fine to wallow a bit and have a goblet of water. hang in there friend, the Lord works in mysterious ways and knows of your sorrows!
nope, no cool comment coming...i'm sorry too and it sounds like it's definitely time to start up some bunco cheer again.
Sara, that totally sucks. Hugs from Kentucky...
Sara, Isaac- I can think of nothing more unfair than the 2 of you not having children right now. Honestly. If anyone ever deserved them...
Sara- I'm sorry it was a hard day for you. I know the wait is unbearable, trying to be "patient," all the time wondering why, why, WHY. I hope today is better. But if it's not, that's okay too. Grieve and mourn and cry all you want, because when it finally happens (and it WILL happen!) you will appreciate it that much more. Love you guys.
I'm sorry, that seriously sucks. I'm always asking around if anyone has a baby they don't want... I've totally got your back.
Sorry! We love you! Don't forget! We pray for you every day.
Oh Sara. I am so sorry for you and now it is my turn to cry for you tonight. I know your pain and frustration and sadness. We also had a potential mom who had a baby a few weeks ago. It sucks. I try not to think about it. But that doesn't really work and I still think about her and cry. I am thinking about you. I pray for you everyday. I think the goblet is ok, by the way, it is nice to just have something that "says" how you are feeling without you having to say it yourself. My choice of goblet is a heating pad wrapped up with me on my bed. It just makes me feel warm and comforted? So, I have my own goblet and completely understand it. Hang in there.
I'm so sorry! I love you and want you to get a baby!
sara...i have been doing some thinking and i have decided. i want to have your baby. i know initially it sounds weird that your brother wants to conceive a child for you, probably in more ways than one. i am already looking like i am pregnant so i figured what the hell. actually the truth is i have been doing something special for you over the last few weeks. i have stolen babies from people from all over. i will send them all to you in the mail and then you pick the one or ones that you like and i will return the others. you have no idea how difficult that is to...what with the amber alert system and all. okay okay, the truth is i invented a new way to have kids. it's called chia-fetus. ch ch ch chia!! it comes in the mail and all you have to do is feed it and pour water on it....
look, the real question is why is there only water in the goblet. if i was there...and by the way i did not appreciate that comment from that kati freak about how her husband is a kid. what a jerk. like i said before, you point out the kid that you want, give me a week, and it's yours. this conversation never happened. we never met. i have never seen you before. my name is mat
Hey, Sweetie! I'm so sorry this is taking so long! But I know that sometime you WILL get your baby. In the mean time, I will just sit here and cry with you.....and just think, you might get a baby who will be just like your brother, Matt!
We love you! Mom
Sara (& Isaac). No words. Just love.
that's the best news she has heard all day, mom.
ok, i totally am going to try the goblet thing next time i have a sucky day. i even want to go buy a red one for just such occasions.
and how could you guys be doing what you are doing right now for the youth in your area if all of your attention and time was focused on a new baby. be patient, it will come.
If you get tired of being patient and you want someone to listen to you scream...You can call!
If you get tired of hearing that the time is not right, just wait...I'll listen, you can call.
If you don't feel like responding to one more email from a possible birthmom because you just CANNOT afford to put your heart out there one more stinking time just incase nothing comes of it...I will listen.
This just sucks. I'm happy to hear your baby-stealing brother is trying to help but you might want to hint to him that it may be a bad idea to mail babies.
Love ya. So bummed for you. But good news has yet to appear...For starters: I have noticed a lot fewer pass-along cards on the gym wall. I believe people are taking them and soon perhaps one will find the right birth-mother to be!
It'll happen...I know how hard it is to wait. Keep up the faith!
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